i know no ones gonna check my blog but i just wanna let this out of my chest.

i fell in love with her since the first day we chat, 7th march.and since that day we started chatting everyday and chatting with her is the only reason i go online. i love her more and more each day and she makes me happy. eventhough im with someone else at that time haha but its just that she make me happier then i ever thought i can. i will never forget the days when we're living a lie =)

then i broke up with the girl im with on May kali,ive been with that girl for 4 years and she was my first love. but when that girl left me "not a single salty tear,not a feeling in my chest" because i was inlove with another girl at that time haha "what goes around comes around"

then on 8th august 2008,08.08.08 the most memorable and happiest day for me came. at last, im officially hers at that day =) but im also kinda upset at that time because on that day she went to indonesia with her parents. she left me all alone on our first day being officially together haha but thank god she didnt go there for long,less than a week i think.

i remember the days like yesterday,march 7th and 8th august to be exact

but we can only make it for a year and a month together and 8 months being officially togther.

its the hardest thing for me to do. i cant let her go. i need her in my life. i know its my fault that her feelings fade away but im trying to change. i should trust her and accept her for who she is. i really wanna change for you. i know you hurt me so bad but i still love you,my feelings to you never faded. the one who you love the most is the one who hurt you the most. i know its karma and like you said,its faith. but we could work it out and we can change it.

if you give me another chance i promise i'll change,i'll let you free, and i'll never let you go.as long as im yours. give me chance to make you love me like you used to and make you happy. and i know you're not ready for a relationship for now and i understand.i will wait for you no matter what. i dont know what else to do. im just not ready to let you go and i still love you and i will always love you. i hope once you're ready to be in a relationship you'll come back to me. i'll do anything to get you back eventhough i know you aint coming back.

im sorry for everything and im sorry for being a jerk.

you will always be in my heart and i still think of you all the time. i cant stop thinking of you and missing you. i really miss you

I LOVE YOU SITI NURUL AQIQAH AMINUDDIN

by the way,today is suppose to be our 15 months together